Closure…

My last day in Leeds...Some random thoughts...

Originally wanna go around the city and university to take some pics...
Still haven’t taken some pics of the beautiful Business School converted from an old church...
Still haven’t taken some pics of the Harry-Potter-like library in the Parkinson building...
Still haven’t taken a pic of myself lying on the grass in Hyde park on a sunny day...
Still haven’t taken some pics of the lifestyle in the city of Leeds...
But it was raining today...

When you keep telling yourself you will do it “next time”, you'll never see when the last “next time” will come...

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Cleared my room in the morning...In fact, I did all the throwing and packing in one morning. That’s the good thing about being a guy, minimum belongings...Just pack and go whenever you wanted to...

Spend the rest of the day re-watching "Scrubs"...

Same jokes are still funny...
Lessons from each episode are still meaningful and touching...

Scrubs...My magical morphine...It really bring back memories with Hadi and my FPGA days...

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I’m not a “farewell” guy...
Leaving a place is always difficult for me...

A friend once told me he hated the last days of his Exchange programs...Cos’ he is kinda sure he will not be as close as those people he used to hang out with here when he return to Sg...

It’s kinda like a natural cycle ya...

First you arrive in England...Feeling all fresh to break out of the Sg education system for the first time, and getting excited about any trivial stuff...

Then you start your studies...Feeling blessed about the relax education system here and soon start cursing your project mates due to the difference in working habits...

Next you start traveling...Feeling invincible, visiting all the places you always wanted to go and doing all the things you once only dream of...

Last you end your Exchange program...Feeling sad that all this have to end...

But before you know it, you will be right back into the vicious cycle of a undergrad back home again...Fighting with deadlines, projects, reports and bell curves...

When all these end, you will be worrying for your future...Fighting with your peers for a job, repaying your education debts to the university, taking care of your family when your parents start to retire etc...

And very soon...you will forget how to dream again...

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Gonna pen my last post when I reach back Sg...
Till then, I just wanna grab hold of any lasting moments I can get over here...

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It is not about the flying in itself...
It is not about letting go...
It is not about the great expanse...
It is not about the calmness around and within you...
It is not about the sensation of sinking as part of the whole...

It is about something else...